The song, I Feel Like a Wreck, is flying! Why? It’s not just the singing, beat, and good vocals. It’s the message. This is the universal human condition. We are imperfect and things don’t always go the way we think or wish they should.
I Feel Like a Wreck – Amy Guess
I just need to tell someone that I feel like a wreck sometimes, but I don’t ever show it. If you didn’t know me well, then you would never notice.
But I feel like a car crash messed up,bent and broken, burning up in flames. I feel like a wreck.
This should be easy, oh I know. Then why am I so out of control? Why does it always feel like I’m the only one? I just can’t do this alone. No I’m not perfect. I can’t fake it anymore.
What’s the point in trying to hide how I really feel? I don’t care what you think about me, I won’t pretend anymore.
Amy nails how we all feel at one time or another:
- Like we’ve messed up or even that we are a mess.
- No one else is in the shape we’re in. They’re all doing great. So what’s wrong with me?
- We shouldn’t feel this way, so we better hide it.
- We really want to share it with someone but then they’ll know who we really are.
Most folks, especially women, are raised to hide their feelings of inadequacy, disappointment, overwhelm, and general feelings of “feeling like a wreck.” As Amy says, “If you didn’t know me well you’d never notice . . .” To avoid those uncomfortable emotions, we try to numb our selves with over eating, alcohol and other drug use, mindless TV and other screen watching, frenetic activity, etc. When we numb our emotions we numb them all. It turns out that we can’t selectively numb the difficult emotions.
When we become willing to be seen for who we really we are, we have the opportunity to connect more deeply with ourselves and others.
It is okay to sit in the muck of life for a while. When we cease running from it or numbing from it, the muck starts to become less gooey and we find we can get up, and step out of it. We find that being vulnerable and being willing to sit in the muck helps us to see new possibilities and opportunities because we are no longer numb.
When we are no longer numb, we can feel sorrow AND joy, discomfort AND ease, fear AND peace.
Put on “I Feel Like a Wreck” and sing along at the top of your lungs. Dance it, jump it, twirl it. And I am wondering if some joy, gratitude, and hope will start filtering into the muck. You might see a way to step out of it and into your vibrant and vital self.